“I am not dreaming, I am not fantasizing. I am opening all the doors and windows to my Soul as my heart is mending and gaining wisdom from my higher being. Here I sit down in the coziest, most peaceful niche of the Universe where there is a pure understanding of the physical world. I have not forgotten about you, in fact, I get by with the thought of you silently catching me before I get down on my knees; of you not leaving while I often walk alone. I can hear you, see you through synchronicity and esoteric patterns calling my attention. You are like a ghost though I must say it utterly amazes me how you exist as an energy, fervent yet calm and gentle. Know that I am grateful for telling me we are always one despite being apart. What is here on earth is for my evolution, to remember that we are more than fairy-tales and romantic companionship. You’ve been my magic for helping me realize my truth. We are apart but this Divine Love has come to undress me of my human needs,I am all stars now made of yours. I am a massive light made of you”
-I N F I N I T E L Y,
Only Love Only Light
If you are weary, scared and shattered, I hope this can help:
Acknowledging that there is Oneness,it’s impossible not to empathize, it’s real frustrating, affecting a feeling of being so powerless. I’ve been trying to make every tragic news fall on my deaf ears but the more resilient you are, the more you get pushed and the last straw is when the “opposite of the light” is well aware of your weakness, it takes one incident to eventuate your fall. Sometimes the way to the light is quite wobbly, I won’t sugarcoat spirituality.It is a SILENT BATTLE UNSEEN. I know that some of you can comprehend, and some only read this with immediate confusion and even a flicker of unfavorable impression;nevertheless,I believe that we all dream of salvation, redemption, peace…of heaven even here on #earth because we all have hopes and goals,chased or ignored.It is our purpose to look forward to happier beginnings so we can go back to paradise we’ve been told we came from and only when we choose the good, do the good and SEE the good can we return HOME.If you want to consider the “bad”, yes! It’s the “opposite of the light” taunting and daunting you so you will surrender to its darkness but please, this is the best moment to look at things as the Higher Power’s test how adamant you are when it comes to fulfilling what drives you to reaching your higher self!Just because it’s not safe anywhere doesn’t mean you stay shut and immobile, get out, the world is for adventures.Just because they say the end is near doesn’t mean you end your quest for bliss, every single day is full of forever! Just because people punish and kill doesn’t mean no one can be trusted and no one deserves forgiveness, an act of strong compassion always makes a HEART beat. Just because atrocity is omnipresent and viral doesn’t mean TRUE LOVE is hard to be found, what isn’t easily attained is always worth the fight!
Do not decorate your own deathbed by giving up living.Remember that everything is a test of #FAITH.
Please bear with the passive response-
this teeny, muted echo, the lowest and
most unhurried blow
When I sit isolated, my thoughts and
feelings are safe and rehabilitated;
there is a special place to nurse me,
the untouchable connection
keeping me sane and free
Please spare me from coercion,
it is not my necessity to spill
from the cup of this delicate
How can I be able at all
to say what’s
Oh please do not disturb a quiet heart
We’re not supposed to take pride
We’re not two attached bulbs of an hourglass,it’d be an idle fullness in me
when you are to lose and be empty
-Yours truly, Nicola An
#art and #words
A page from “The Universe at Heartbeat” by yours truly, Nicola An:
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How much do you love and how do you understand love?Do you really have an answer?Do we really have the answers to the confusions and mysteries love ties around our emotions and thoughts? Who are we to master love? We are just flecks on the face of the universe, we are just an existence like tiny dancing particles inside a glass jar which is love. Who are you to speak of the most powerful as though you can draw a line from its beginning to its end?Love, love disappears when you claim to understand it; it is an ocean alive in your heart, it is indeed an ocean. Imagine if it’s only made of shallow waters, it is no longer an ocean. Love being an ocean, you have to dive in and get drowned, yet when you get drowned, you won’t reach its bottom still. Of course we know love but it refuses to be understood that is why we are all going through it but always asking and looking. Sometimes it is ridiculous when we blame love for our tragedies and longings never realizing they’re part of the journey how we get on with the nature of love. We fall, we get back on our feet. The bad has to happen as much as the good for us to keep seeking with hope because that’s the gift of love-a never-ending path of hope.
Please do not ask me how much I love you, it would be my most meaningless mistake to give the right answer.