In honor of my beloved band’s [ THE MAINE] heartwarming “Am I Pretty?” music video which encouraged me to post-for the first time- about my insecurities without feeling bad about it, I am posting my piece of writing which relates to the concept. Listening to the song before had reminded me of my awkwardness and serious anxiety when it comes to socially participating, especially that people so easily spot your physical flaws and tend to make you feel bad about it. Well growing up and be entirely different from the “little star” you once were,it becomes an unsafe, narrow road to you whenever you encounter people’s eyes. I cannot wear the clothes that I wear because I am fat and because some parts of my body are weirdly flawed I only wear shirts,jeans and a pair of sneakers all the time and be dissed for having that tedious fashion. Attractive girls make me feel small. Some people think I’m a lesbian because I don’t date anyone, or think I don’t have a boyfriend because I’m aware that being fat doesn’t make me pretty. But oh my God these insecurities are petty, winning self-love keeps on helping me to get through those things and admitting them opened a consciousness inside me that feels liberating. I cannot believe I ever posted it through sharing the video. So I’d like to thank The Maine so much for their creativity which pushed me to embrace my imperfections with all my heart and be grateful still. Will have this in my pocket forever to remind me of my beauty and grace. Am I Pretty? yes! we’re all pretty !!!
I am awkward. I am imperfect. I am insecure but I AM PRETTY!
“There’s beauty and grace in the flaws of your face”-The Maine
2 0 1 5, WE MADE IT. It began.
There’s a story here that stars will always know.
Thank you universe.
You hear it right Free-For-All-Tour, it’s very self-explanatory; this is one of the prime reasons why I dig this band so much. These beautiful people do know how to prioritize giving back to the success they’ve reached so far, these independent fellas do know their way to embark on a risky experiment despite the odds just to make sure they give as much love as they receive from people who’ve become their other limbs to keep following their passion.
Here’s front man John O’Callaghan’s brief explanation why this Free-For-All-Tour has commenced:
I am praying and hoping for this tour to come out as a huge success and be a lifelong inspiration to musicians and inspiring musicians out there that passion becomes even more alive when you make it an instrument to be one with the world.
Day 19 of “21 Beautiful Days Before Turning 21”
ONE WEEK since this show. Exactly thanks dear heaven for this beautiful memory being a huge part of this 21 Beautiful Days project of mine. I’ll stay forever in love-like falling in love for the first time-with this first night of celebrating good life with my beloved humans[The Maine band]from afar for the bolder experience and of course the friendship I found. 🙂
Day 16 of “21 Beautiful Days Before Turning 21”
The Maine finally. Best pre-birthday gift ever! I have the best brothers and sisters in the world, though I knew this journey wasn’t the easiest, I was the happiest! Til now I wake up with a loud heartbeat, the sweet memory of hugging each one of them stays like another weight in my body and soul. Though I was alone during the show, I wasn’t alone at all because there was home there. Despite the reality that these humans do not know me, they did make sure everyone was a part of their family. Couldn’t also forget how I took that risk with a friend to look after just to get to see them once more, and it was all worth it! The waiting , the tired feet and icky feeling. I know I couldn’t suffice the most accurate words why this band means a lot to me but here’s a thing: being a fan never felt this wonderful since I was a little girl. This band is precious, these humans are like my best friends in another world. PS: Had that bonus time of waiting for my flight back home only to see them waiting for their flight to SG , that moment I let go the “fangirl” thing because it was just nice looking at them as normal people, made me see that they weren’t that different from me at all. 🙂